DR. PREM SHARMA
young boy of 26 years consulted me for backache.
He was brought to me by his mother and his aunt.
He told me that he is a spastic child. He has had
a number of problems in the past. He had undergone
a surgery of his back to relieve the spasticity of
the back muscles. No doubt it helped him up to
some extent. But his problems persisted. The pain
remained and gradually the patient became unable
to sit for a long period of time. After a short
while he has to lie down but it is not possible
for him to lie down everywhere. He has been doing
Chartered Accountancy so that he could earn a very
good income from home. Gradually, the speed of all
his activities slowed down. He cannot write fast
enough. He is always very late. The biggest
problem he has been facing for last few years is,
he can’t write fast enough to finish his
examination. Secondly, sitting for three hours at
one stretch is not possible for him. To clear
every semester it takes him three years. A lot of
time is being wasted like that. His efficiency has
also decreased. Somehow or the other he would
manage to cope up with the circumstances. But now
the authorities do not allow him extra time for
writing or to take a pause in between his
examinations. His career is at stake.
asked him, “CA is a very tough course even for a
normal person. Why did you choose this line?”
answered “No doubt, it is tough, but earlier I
wasn’t in so much trouble. After my surgery I
got weak and I don’t have much stamina. I always
felt that my decision is perfect because my mother
is a great support, and has always encouraged me
to face difficulties. I am doing it to make my
questioned, “A CA has to visit many places, has
to make contacts in society and it involves a lot
of mental and physical effort which you are not
capable of putting in.”
explained, “I know, but, despite all adversities
I feel once I become a CA, I would make such an
arrangement that the people would visit me instead
of me going to them.”
further added, “My mother is my driving force.
She has been very considerate, always inspiring
me. She is always with me, I am never alone. She
has never left me alone. Without her I am nothing.
The kind of care and compassion she had given me
is exceptional and only a few can get it. I too am
very much attached to her and relaxed when I am
with her. But recently she is not keeping good
health and now it is my turn to take care of her.
I want to extend the similar kind of gesture
towards my parent.”
asked him, “How she can be with you everywhere?
When you are in the examination hall or on the
field, she can’t go everywhere with you.”
said, “Yes, but it is the words of my mother
which invigorates me. But since my last surgery I
am shattered. My condition is not good enough
to take care of myself, how I can serve my
beloved parents. I abuse myself. My decisiveness
has reduced considerably. During my examination
when I attempt questions, I get confused whether I
am doing right or wrong. Sometime I feel it is
right and then wrong. In this process I lose a lot
of time. The future seems bleak. The kind of
intellect I used to have is no more there. There
seems to be no solutions for my health problems. I
am all muddled up.”
the whole discussion there was no anxiety on his
face. On the contrary he kept on laughing
throughout the case taking.
was never worried about my health before. But ever
since I found myself incompetent in all the
fields, it is obvious for one to get worked up.
Secondly, my parents are getting older and not
going to live along with me all along is a fact of
life. The odds against me are slowly taking me
into its grip. If I cannot even write or move or
unable to do anything what would be my fate.”
young boy was given Silicea 6, one dose which
brought about some remarkable changes. The back
pain reduced. His speed in his activities
improved, the confusion and duality of his mind
cleared. His mind got a lot of clarity and he got
very positive towards life and he got through in
individuals are, in fact, very aggressive and
competitive but lack the courage, to put up their
feeling before others. At the same time they have
a great respect for their feelings and they stick
to it and do it the way they like. Their self
esteem is very high. When someone very reliable or
nearby give them support then the story comes
- head - enlarged
– Seat of reason, imagination and intelligence,
feels that his mind and his ability to think are
excellent. It cannot be compared with anyone else.
Whatever he thinks or does is flawless; no one can
challenge him as he is perfect in his applications
and in his field. The sense of perfection is there
because all his things are done with due care. The
way he does anything is perfect and is right. This
strong feeling gives him courage or rather the
audacity to take up challenges and face
difficulties. But Silicea is very coarse in
texture. It does not have such strength to stand
on its own. It needs to be held together with
cement to be so strong. Once it gets mixed with
cement then its strength increases many folds.
our patient, being so physically challenged and
handicapped and suffering from such a severe
problem which apparently has got no solution, but
on the contrary is likely to deteriorate further,
took up the challenge of pursuing a career as a CA
which needs stupendous mental and physical effort.
He took it up just because of the inspiration he
drew from his mother who is his driving force.
Right through from his junior classes up to his
Higher Secondary (12th
standard), the same inspiration helped him and he
got through all the examinations admirably and
never felt anything too difficult to achieve.
Moreover his strength and ability over shadowed
the physical incapacity.
his mother always boosted up his morale and backed
him up very strongly, he looked forward and things
happened the way he wishes. No doubt, the efforts
to overcome difficult matters are done on the part
of the patient as sincerity and elegance are
always the inseparable assets of the Silicea.
further increases the self-esteem of Silicea.
They regard themselves to be always right
and never view the negative aspect of life. It
gives him firmness in his own belief.
positivity and optimism increases as well.
disposition – drowning – river – himself,
that he doesn’t bother how difficult the target
is, he pushes himself into it.
Suicidal disposition –
adversities, where there is all the chances of
– Bit of a problem or adversity.
patient choosing to be a CA is not a joke. Even
for a normal person who is physically alright does
not find it easy, not to speak of person who is
physically challenged. The conviction is so
strong, that he is willing to take up any
challenge and by simply over looking his
convictions are very strong and he always sticks
to it which brings some adversities as well. In
fact left on their own they are least confident.
‘A want to confident’ is always there. The
earlier stage is further heightened.
change in attitude ensures that conditions of
failure are bound to be there. It is the last
thing to be tolerated. As the patient progresses
into higher studies and the physical and the
mental condition not being conducive for him,
things stop happening his way, which is not at all
bearable. This gives him a reminder of his
limitations. Professional studies are not easy and
it is not a place that his mother may be of help.
So here the support, the protection, the driving
force is no more with him. Here he has to face
challenges all alone. And when his mother or the
parent needed his service he found himself
incapable. Earlier, when the mother was strong
enough the ambition was flying high. Now the
battle is to be fought all alone which is a great
problem for him.
1. FEAR - alone, of being
- alone, when
3. HELD - amel. being held
4. Fear of nervous breakdown
5. FEAR responsibility,
his examinations and in his field work, he cannot
be accompanied by the mother. So when left alone
he is shattered. The never confident side of his
personality is exposed. The reality comes into
view. Now to clear his CA has become a dream. One
semester of six months takes three years so how
long it would take to complete it. In any case his
parents are growing older and they are no in
position to help him like they could earlier.
biggest problem of my patient is writing, the
speed of his is so slow that he seems incapable of
from work mental writing
- inability for
- difficulty in expressing ideas in
have used this medicine many a time for students
who generally face this problem.
it is want of confidence and confusion as to
whether they are doing right or wrong. So is the
problem with the patient.
the obstinacy and the egotism remain. They never
want to leave the kind of image they have created
about themselves in the first place. They want no
downward movement at all nor do they want any
resistance at the same time.
- intolerant of contradiction
cry when kindly spoken to
– not arguing; convictions and keeping them:
despite of having firm
they are very obstinate whatever may come, so
adhered are they to their convictions. They always
stick to it despite any resistance. Like, my
patient is following his CA course. He does not
leave it or forgo it. His conviction and egotism
is always behind it.
do not want a downfall in the position or state
they have got in the society hence remains mild,
yielding, listens to every body and remains quiet.
They don’t want to get into any arguments. It
may be because of his reverence for the people
around. They are so self willed, never take up the
confrontation. Even if they are going wrong in
their ways they just won’t listen.
- walking - backward; she walks - forward; when
two issues are there at the same time; one is the
position, achieving the success on one hand and
the reality of his situation which is the lack of
confidence at the other hand. It makes the things
very difficult for him to acquire because what has
happened is in the first stage is what he is
wanting. The reality of his current condition is
not accepted. It makes him confused about his own
of mind - identity, as to his - duality, sense of
- body - half - left half - belong to her; does
dilemma makes him nervous, indecisive and there
always exist two stages like my patient when he is
writing his paper he doesn’t know whether it is
right or wrong. So lot of time is wasted doing all
this. At times thoughts come that whether it is
right to continue CA or should he give up his
ambition. However, he does only what he wants
despite his mildness and yielding he will still
stick to his conviction. Because, once the image
has been established in society he doesn’t want
to lower it. Relinquishing his CA course makes all
the difference to his image. But after the
medicine he could get through his exams very
‘CONSCIENTIOUS, FASTIDIOUS, Proper too,
ANXIETY - conscience; anxiety of’ has earned
him an image, but all these are distinctively
if we see him the other way round
AT, cannot bear to be
- aroused; when
- aroused, when
- spoken to, when
TO; being - aversion
headstrong - children - cry when kindly spoken to;
all these things are like pins, very sharp and
pointed and they hurt his feelings. It hurts the
pride of the person. He consoles himself to be
very perfect whereas others are like vermin.
- vermin - seeing vermin crawl about
is the image on the one hand and the lack of
confidence on the other hand which makes him
fearful to appear in public.
- public; about appearing in - talk in public; to
– whispering, answering to the mother instead of
to the prescriber directly
the efforts to maintain his image take another
shape when all the positive efforts become
ineffective because the reality keep on knocking
and prodding him. When aroused he becomes very
angry, anxious, confused, forgetful, restless. His
incapacity shatters him, show him a very horrible
sight of his actual condition i.e. DELUSIONS -
visions, has – horrible
commitment in Silicea is not strong enough to
maintain him on the right path.
FROM – anticipation
keeps getting stranger and the so called appealing
image gives way to negative attitudes to the
unexpected extreme, like
- want of religious feeling
apathy - religion, to his
- crossed, when
old lady consulted me for various problems like
hypertension, allergic rheumatoid arthritis, a
very severe asthmatic problem, eye problem, pain
in chest etc. She had been to many doctors
allopathic, ayurvedic and homoeopathic as well.
But she was not satisfied. She has been suffering
for the last 10 years.
took the case and prescribed her a medicine. The
result was that she got relief in all her problems
except her asthma. I tried to continue the remedy
thinking that when she got relief in her other
problems, she would get relief in her asthmatic
problem as well. But the outcome did not satisfy
her. She, time and again, insisted on me to cure
her asthmatic problem and leave the other ailments
aside. I took rubrics like her being indifferent
to her recovery and some other indicated rubrics.
But it did not work. One day she told me that she
only wants relief from her respiration problem. It
was so severe that she could not even walk down a
step. “Especially in the morning when everybody
needs me, I cannot walk. So far, I have been
managing somehow. But if I get fully dependent,
who will look after me. Give me such a medicine so
that I should be alright and I should in position
to work. I am worried about myself.”
asked her, “What do you do during the
“I become angry. I cannot tolerate it, make my
asthma alright. “
most emphasized part by the patient was the
asthmatic condition, even inhalers, antibiotics or
nebulization all failed to give any results. The
bronchi just do not dilate. Actually, the attacks
that she gets are so severe that it renders the
patient totally bed ridden. The patient is in such
a condition that she cannot make even the smallest
of movement which is the worrying point for the
patient. She is not bothered about the rest of
complaints as they do not render her so incapable.
This is the one thing that is most troublesome. At
the same time she feels angry when her condition
makes her realize that a day would come when she
would be completely bed ridden.
- health; about - own health; his - menopause;
- contradiction; from
- aroused; when
- intolerant of contradiction
feeling - beloved by his parents, wife, friends;
feels of not being
dose of Silicea settled her whole affairs.